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Portfolio Entries from CelestialGrace

  1. By the throat ...

    I'm in a bad state, and it's interfering with my writing, and other creative puruits. Did you ever feel like cutting out the broken bits of your brain and see what can be stitched back afterwards? It's gotta be less hellish than what I am experiencing now. Each time I sink this low I find myself wondering if it will be temporary or if this is the time that I return to that void where I spent many years and only able to unlock a small amount of what is in my brain. I lived for years with the...
  2. Goals, plans, whatnot

    So far a lot of what I've had planned for 2020 has gone to hell in a handbasket, yet strangely I'm still achieving some of my goals. I've spent a lot of time trudging through my files, in an attempt to get organised. And I haven't even looked at the paper files ... well at least not for long. My files are a big mess for a lot of reasons and this is a herculean task - made all the more challenging by the sheer amount of creative work I've produced in the times since I had asecond breakdown...
  3. Drowning not waving ...

    Long before I found this wonderful community I found myself stumbling on my path to recovery - but it took a long time for me to identify the stumbling block. Even after I identified the stumbling block I still kept back sliding and losing my way - even though it didn't appear that way to others because I was achieving so much. I kept losing my way because while I identified what had caused me to stumble I didn't look further into everything it had brought up for me - I just swept it under...
  4. Woah, back-up there ... please.

    3 months after it crashed I have my PC back - with all files intact. I'm a prolific creator (and not just with writing) plus I'd been slack with backing up my work, so there was a lot of material that I could have lost. Now I'm merging the files from the laptop that I've been using, with the files on the PC - and slowly updating my back-up drives (3 of them). It's a slow process but I'm sticking with it. But that's not the end of it. I still have stories, notes, etc in books and on other...
  5. It's all a part of the process.

    I was injured at the end of 2016 and sometime after that had my second break-down. It's no exaggeration to say that I barely made it through 2017 in one piece and often the only way I made it through a day was second by second. Right at the end of 2016 I thought I'd do the world a favour and never write again. I was on the brink of destroying decades of notes, drafts, and ideas. I realised though that I couldn't destroy what had already been published; that couldn't be erased. A short time...
  6. I'm Sorry...

    Writing, esp poetry, has been a huge part of my recovery.
  7. Hello from the other side

    I found this lovely community when researching some info for a client (for the book that I was editing). I've finally handed in all of my suggested edits; it took longer than I would have liked, for a number of reasons. I've been editing other people's work for years; resumes, comic scripts, short stories, other bits and pieces, and countless uni essays, and each time I learn something new about myself and the process. If I'm lucky I also learn some new facts. I enjoy editing, but I can get...
  8. Imposter Syndrome

    This is a subject I'll be returning to in great length but for today I'll keep it brief. I've been struggling more so than usual. It's not just the stress of adding new projects to my plate. It's all the positive steps that I've been taking to tick more goals off my bucket list and follow more of my dreams, has triggered more CPTSD epsiodes, and I'm struggling with Imposter Syndrome more than ever. Positive experiences are a huge trigger for me - for a lot of reasons. The more strides i make...
  9. Intro

    Since finding this website today I've really thrown myself into things. I've joined communities in the past and then never got involved, or have been sporadic, at best, with my involvement. But it's the opposite here; at least thus far. I'm very active on social media but not in too many web-based communities. There's something about this one, however, that has me entranced; possibly only momentarily. I took a leap and shared some of my published flash fiction work here. It's a risk because...
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