Muqtada
Scribe
I lost my muse and I can't seem to write without recovering her! To clarify, let me give you a little backstory.
I had a dream a week ago about a girl I used to know years and years back, someone I haven't spoken to since 2009. The dream started with our real-life history (which was just talking a few times) and then veered off into an improbable future of childhood adventure and naivety where she became an entirely fictional character. I awoke with the strangest feeling of sadness and guilt. After thinking about the dream for a significant part of the day I realized that with a few tweaks it would make [in my opinion] a very interesting short story. Every time I remembered her face it invoked the same strong feelings as the dream--very strong inspiration. Unfortunately I had just started a new job and was bringing some work home with me and didn't have time to write.
I finally got that time tonight but when I sat down this evening to write I realized I couldn't quite remember the feelings, couldn't quite remember the dream. That's no problem, I remember it all every time I think of her face... except I can't remember what she looks like. I checked Facebook and all the usual social networking suspects and she appears to have no visible online presence. I have absolutely no pictures of her. Without going into great detail, her physical appearance is actually extremely important to the story. Now I'm sitting here, ready to write an interesting story with an unexpected lesson and my mind is completely blank. Try as I might, I'm unable to get past the first paragraph.
What do you do when you've lost your muse before you've even started?
I had a dream a week ago about a girl I used to know years and years back, someone I haven't spoken to since 2009. The dream started with our real-life history (which was just talking a few times) and then veered off into an improbable future of childhood adventure and naivety where she became an entirely fictional character. I awoke with the strangest feeling of sadness and guilt. After thinking about the dream for a significant part of the day I realized that with a few tweaks it would make [in my opinion] a very interesting short story. Every time I remembered her face it invoked the same strong feelings as the dream--very strong inspiration. Unfortunately I had just started a new job and was bringing some work home with me and didn't have time to write.
I finally got that time tonight but when I sat down this evening to write I realized I couldn't quite remember the feelings, couldn't quite remember the dream. That's no problem, I remember it all every time I think of her face... except I can't remember what she looks like. I checked Facebook and all the usual social networking suspects and she appears to have no visible online presence. I have absolutely no pictures of her. Without going into great detail, her physical appearance is actually extremely important to the story. Now I'm sitting here, ready to write an interesting story with an unexpected lesson and my mind is completely blank. Try as I might, I'm unable to get past the first paragraph.
What do you do when you've lost your muse before you've even started?