Xanados
Maester
For my entire life I've been struggling as I read. This, believe it or not, is the source of a deep depression. When I read, even as I read this back, my tongue moves. I have tried many things. I have tried to read faster (it slightly helps), but it always there. There is no time when I don't think about it.
I realize that it is natural. It's sub-vocalization, I think. But some people do not suffer it. Some people don't mind it, but I don't think that they have it as bad. It's not subtle.
I have struggled with it for years.
On another note, I have tried to read the LoTR for over 2 years. I can't get past the beginning chapters. As of yesterday I have been determined to finish it. But, for some reason, the problem has gotten worse. I'm on chapter 6 of the Fellowship. This is the chapter that I just couldn't bear to read the last time I read it almost a a year ago. (For the tongue movement amongst other reasons) And now it has happened again. What a paradox.
It is ruining my reading. Well, I can't say that because it has always been there. While I was reading Elantris I found it slightly easier, whereas in LotR I did not. The dialogue trips me up. There are hardly any contractions. I partly have a lisp and I have never pronounced the letters in words. I glottal stop, too.
When I think I constantly move my tongue, too.
Please, no light comments. This is serious for me. I have only now decided that I want to make a thread about it.
Edit: I've just remembered: I find it almost impossible to say, in my head, the word "changed". I just cannot say words with similar letters. It is to the point where I must open my mouth, whisper the word, and bloody read on.
Edit: This is reading. This is writing. The two most important things. This is a horrible affliction. I don't know I've managed to suffer through the books that I have.
Ughhhhhhhhh.
I realize that it is natural. It's sub-vocalization, I think. But some people do not suffer it. Some people don't mind it, but I don't think that they have it as bad. It's not subtle.
I have struggled with it for years.
On another note, I have tried to read the LoTR for over 2 years. I can't get past the beginning chapters. As of yesterday I have been determined to finish it. But, for some reason, the problem has gotten worse. I'm on chapter 6 of the Fellowship. This is the chapter that I just couldn't bear to read the last time I read it almost a a year ago. (For the tongue movement amongst other reasons) And now it has happened again. What a paradox.
It is ruining my reading. Well, I can't say that because it has always been there. While I was reading Elantris I found it slightly easier, whereas in LotR I did not. The dialogue trips me up. There are hardly any contractions. I partly have a lisp and I have never pronounced the letters in words. I glottal stop, too.
When I think I constantly move my tongue, too.
Please, no light comments. This is serious for me. I have only now decided that I want to make a thread about it.
Edit: I've just remembered: I find it almost impossible to say, in my head, the word "changed". I just cannot say words with similar letters. It is to the point where I must open my mouth, whisper the word, and bloody read on.
Edit: This is reading. This is writing. The two most important things. This is a horrible affliction. I don't know I've managed to suffer through the books that I have.
Ughhhhhhhhh.
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