Thank you all so much for your encouraging inputs on this topic! Since I posted this question and joined this forum, I feel like I've already gained insight. The most important for me is that I feel like my mindset is changing. I realise that it just takes so much time and dedication. And that's okay. So me progressing slow and my writing sucking at the beginning is not unusual or a bad sign.
And I keep motivating myself with the idea that even if I should write crap - writing anything is still better for my brain than just passively consuming social media. So, I do it for my health at least.
This is a quote that I always try to keep in mind.
"Never give up on a dream just because of the time it will take to accomplish it. The time will pass anyway."
I've never regretted asking a girl out, even when I went down in flames. All my regrets are when I did nothing. Burns heal, but the unasked and unanswered question is forever. When I take my last breath, I'll be OK with things even if all I have is a trail of unpublished, but finished, novels.
Istar
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