writing concerns

I have recently begin feeling selfconcious about the fact that in my novel feels very intimate to me. What I write is somewhat dark. It was never my intent to make the maincharacter based on myself, that just happened. But to me when i read my own writing it brings me back to the very traumas...

I'm not particularly annoyed by it, but I wish they wouldn't do it until the dang thing was at least published. My family frequently jokes about 'their cut' and frankly that doesn't sit right with me. I'm already generous enough with them as is. Unless my book blows up like Harry Potter or...