Then get to it. If you think you're ready to push, push with everything you've got. Writing is both exploratory and cathartic, and the only way to get to those states is to wade in. Jumping in doesn't do it. It doesn't give you time to get invested in the characters and the risk. This is one you need to feel your way through, and many of those feels won't feel good. And that's okay, too. Just as long as you feel something, you're on the right track.Based on what I'm thinking, I am ready. That's what I'm looking for anyway.