Thomas Laszlo
Sage
Yeah, lately I have been struggling. I can never seem to get words out on the paper well enough which isn't a huge problem, I go read a good book and revisit a few hours and five math assignments later. My major problem is in the principles some people uphold that don't always work. Example; my band teacher is trying to help me extend my range on my Euphonium, his solution whenever I can't reach the high notes is that I need to use more air. I do it in class and it goes well, but I get home and I can blow my chest apart for thirty minutes and I won't hit that note again. Another: My parents won't gte me a new phone even though, mine is slowly deteriorating, and their response is to pay for my own, but my mom got her new one and got my brother a brand new ipad mini the same evening. My younger brother also has a pig he feeds every once in a while and then shows at the fair and has the possibility of making a ton of money. I work at the YMCA for eight bucks an hour and I don't have close to enough money off one paycheck to buy a new computer or phone or anything significant. I brought it up one day and my mom replied with this: "just be happy with where you are" How am I supposed to be happy where I am if I'm sliding backwards down the mountain? I want to start a business but I don't have the money to learn how to do anything that will sell, I want to write a book but all my time for writing said novel is taken up by school work I don't feel like doing and extra curricular that I basically have to do to even be thought of for the Naval Academy... I guess I don't understand why they always say if you put in the work you'll get the results but I put in a lot of work and I watch lazy people beat me all the time and get the rewards I thought I would get because I worked my tail off? If someone could explain this phenomena please do, because it's tiring me out, and its stressing my faith in God a lot.